Words of the day: HIGHLY DISPENSABLE. :)
Definition: Xin Tian is somebody whom you can do without anytime and anywhere.

Totally died for Biology test today, am so prepared to get a 1-digit grade out of 30 marks. Maths and Chemistry tomorrow; going to die as much cause I'm just so screwed.
Sometimes I just need a special note of encouragement.
Tomorrow will soon pass and it's yet another week gone.
I'm not as strong as anyone thinks I am.
I'm utterly asdfghjkl.
I need love too.


是否还记得, 从前美丽的天色
那时天很蓝, 我们的未来都在不远地方晴朗着

一切都变了, 生命不只是快乐
浓浓黑雾, 笼罩我们, 暴风雨就要来了

但谁说不能, 肩并着肩, 站稳
我们用心和用爱, 创造, 让新的世界诞生

在我们心中我知道, 这是永恒的长跑
好不容易, 来到这里, 明天还要追更多荣耀

把自己角色扮演好, 全力以赴每一秒
和我的家人, 和我的朋友
向着目标, 手牵手, 一起走到

这又是起点, 我们有一样心愿
当我们团结, 狂风巨浪也不能阻挡我们走向前

谁害怕改变, 只要紧握着信念
心中有梦, 没有遥远, 跨出去就在瞬间

但谁说不能, 肩并着肩, 站稳
我们用心和用爱, 创造, 让新的世界诞生


New skin.

As patriotic as these NDP songs may be; sometimes they really... touch your heart.

A Place In My Heart

Verse 1:
It doesn't matter where I come from
It doesn't matter what I do
It doesn't matter what I believe in
It doesn't matter how tough it may be

It only matters we've come through together
Closer with every page we turn
It only matters we could make it better
Reaching out to the sky

You will always have A Place in My Heart
You will always be the Spark
Every smile we share every tear we've shed
There's nothing we can't overcome

You will always have A Place in My Heart
You will always be the Spark
If I'm lost and weary I'm not worried
I know You will always be there with open arms

Verse 2:
I'll always treasure those happy moments
I can remember all the songs
It doesn't matter I'm ordinary
It doesn't matter how different we are


Sighs. :'(

Happy birthday Sexaye Uncle Loy Xingqi!

Lots of things to be done this weekend; busy busy. Not looking forward to school the least bit; not at all. Woohoooooooo school's gonna be sexaye and cool. :)

Saw this Chinese book we were supposed to purchase in Year1 for book report assignment. And there was this statement in one of the stories.



Work time!

Oh I slept at 3am last night/morning!!! :D

A week's gone and over but it's still the same.

-Racial Harmony Day celebration; quite okay I guess. I was quite entertained, more of by Han Ying and Kimberley than some performers. The Sri Warisan guy who speaks super fast is quite cool though.
-Full band was awful I totally couldn't play anything decent.

-Missed two hours of Maths on Binomials cause of Dongzhou performance argh!!! >:(
-Performance was quite good (I think). At least I know I played my loudest and best-est. Standing up when you have melody was cool.
-MEP concert wasn't as sleep inducing as some concert but the last ensemble by alumni was so... that I totally conked out.

-Maths was terrible cause I totally couldn't follow, sighs.
-Lunch; some things were depressing. I don't like recesses and lunches.
-Gastric when I reached home at 9 ha ha ha. :) I love Mummy Low.

-Siswo told me I'm in EXCO, beside a toilet...
-2 hours of Chem totally killed the class. Can't stand her lessons.
-PC was...inspiring. -_-
-Homeworking outside band room wasn't very efficient but funny and entertaining.

-Totally slept during lecture.
-Thank you Xiao Wei for Maths Quiz; I just died lah, like totally...
-Chem test was killer; cool man.
-Lunch was PLAIN depressing.
-So much emotions I played my mightiest during full band but it was short.
-SP after that was good in my opinion. Was really fierce and strict with the section and I think discipline today improved.
-Squad was better too; maybe fine system really works. Money is the root of all...
-Dinner to celebrate Xingqi's birthday was fun. The cake was hamburger shaped and pretty! Played the Tempo game to finish up the cake haha and some of them got addicted even on the way home.

Just a seven-words question; I didn't know which one-word answer to say. Many things have changed; I think I did too, a lot in fact.


Just 2 minutes' worth; my nose can't stand it anymore. D:

Konzert XV was fantabulous! :D Never knew how the unglam areas of Esplanade look like haha. The backstage was quite messay (-_-) but the dressing room is like wow, smells of Watermark Hotel Room 113. :) View from stage to audience seats' wow too; I think it's super wow when there's nobody and it's like, O_O...

Thank you GHG for the smiley balloon, really like it! :D And whoever gave me hugs too.

Will post 2 photos probably some day else. Good night!

Stupid nose. >: (

Tomorrow's Lollipop Day!

AND Konzert XV!


:D I'll be genuinely happy from this moment on. :)

5 days' over; in a nutshell.

Monday, 14 July

Played floorball during hockey, got reminded of how much fun we used to have last time in P4 with Mr Osman. And P6's Captain's Ball too. :)

Maths was cool as usual. Got back quiz, 10/10. Pleased. :) I like Polynomials and Partial Fractions.

Mdm Loh told us the story of the pencil during assembly. "Now and then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpener. That makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards, he's much shaper. So you, too, must learn to bear certain pains and sorrows, because they will make you a better person." All I can say is, wow. I want to be a pencil, but I can't. :'(

Band was, bad + good. Took Year3 Squad (again, for Ching Woon). Shouted wrong commands, especially during fall out. Embarrassing. :( Sectionals were horribly slack. Worked out many things on my own though, accomplished. Being a QM is fun anyway. Going home was :( and :) too. Yeah.

Tuesday, 15 July

Thank you Mr Teo (History teacher) for sending us the slides. :) Recess was bad. Flame test was quite cool but concentrated hydrochloric acid is out to kill. I don't really like Improper Partial Fractions... Self-study/revision with Xiao Wei, Han Ying and Kimberley was pretty efficient. MEP was quite cool cause got to use Sibelius. :) And listening was as hard as usual but melody writing was quite rubbish.

Wednesday, 16 July

We've a new classmate: Zi Ruo! Welcome. :)

History test was crap, seriously. Totally blanked out for (c). PC lesson; 'Bricks are there for a reason.' Wow. "The Last Lecture." Inspiring. HCL test; did gonghan, quite okay I guess, hopefully.

Band practice with Senior High was quite good too. Thought my tone was quite nice aha. I really like the Ferrer Ferran piece. Finlandia's...quite nice too actually haha. Oh we have melody line wow! Left earlier with Dilys cause yeah, piano lesson.

Train ride was...happy! :D Chunk chunk; small chunk small chunk. Ha nonsensical. Piano lesson was pretty okay. Had double vision and misread 2 notes, embarrassing. Mrs Tan told me to re-learn how to read notes. :O LOL. Vocals was tiring, seriously. Breathing exercises reminded me of Year1 when we first learn the euphonium.

Awfully drained.

Thursday, 17 July

My nose and throat were really bad. :' (

Maths was free period cause Mr Kwek was on childcare leave so Xiao Wei, Han Ying, Kimberley and I went to the bench outside 4D to homework and it was quite productive. :) I still love band room bench more though... More feelings. D: Macbeth quiz was kind of rubbish; totally screwed up short answers and quotes. Sequencing should be alright though. Ha I'm quite confident I can pass. -_- Teacher's Day auditions after that. Felt kind of agitated though I didn't show it. Emotions emotions...

Esplanade Library after that. :D Love that place. Quite productive also, and really had a good time laughing with Dilys. :) And BreadTalk after that yum yum! And her Digestive (Intestine) Biscuits are yummy!

Friday, 18 July

Today was a terrible day. No tests at all, yet totally bad, gross, disgusting, horrible, whatever. Okay maybe there were tests but probably tests of life. Fail.

Nose and throat were awfully bad, so bad I kind of slept a bit during Maths. Sorry for being so noisy in class blowing my nose. Had the need to blow it during brass combine but embarrassing and disturbing. Everything else was bad too. Band was partially lovely cause of Mr Davis but still really lonely and sad. Going home was the worst.

Came home and blew everything out from my nose and it was really bad. Han Ying says I'm torturing myself sleeping at unearthly hours. I need to sleep early today, or I'd probably disappear from school for a couple of days from Monday onwards.


Wow this post is long, but this length used to be in a day in the past... Well, used to...

五月天 - 知足



终於你身影 消失在人海尽头
才发现 笑著哭 最痛



I'm not exactly okay. I really need a special Friend, really.

Counting down: 2 more to Lollipop Day and Konzert XV!

Exactly a week to Lollipop Day and Konzert XV!

Just a quick post cause may not update here next week unless some significant stuffs happen.

Got back Maths CT4 on Wednesday/yesterday; think I did quite well... 18.5/20. But gah 4 tests next week, and many many following that week haha. Jiayou..!

SC EXCO interview yesterday; think I flopped it zzz... Sighs my interviews are always...shi bai. -_-

Band today was...special. Felt so funny and wrong and argh just plain weird. Not the first time Year4s aren't around but now that they're really not going to be here for good it's...ugh. Anyway I miss Lionel a lot... And it was really really really very very very lonely playing first stand alone... :'(

Tempoerary committee meeting after that. Oh I'm not Year1 Squad Leader anymore, they changed me to Quarter Mistress cause I can only go for fall-in sometimes on Fridays if there's no SC blocked time. So yeah, am QM with Jia Hui and Zoe. Ok haha disappointed that I can't take Year1s but still I like QM's job. :D

Oh I was quite sad on the way home today.

Will be very busy, bye bye!

Another 9 more days to Lollipop Day and Konzert XV!

Wow, school finally officially started (for us).

Was still on the gah-let's-not-study mood but yeah weird as it sounds but Maths geared me up a bit. But oh well History's just as zzz so... Yeah. MEP was tiring, lots of copying. The new teacher for word setting and world music seemed quite nice.

Home alone.

I know these make no sense but I miss being missed. (-_-)

I wish I migrated elsewhere.
I wish I was away for a long term.
I wish I could disappear from earth for some time.

I wish I have a best friend.


(Christine Glass) My Love will get You Home

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself lost and all alone,
Get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home.
My love will get you home.

If the bright lights blind your eyes. my love will get you home,
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself lost and all alone,
Get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home.
My love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself lost and all alone,
Get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home.
My love will get you home.


Nice song. :)

SC chalet was fun!

Went with Bin Bin on Bus 15 but couldn't talk to her cause the bus was soooo crowded. Uh so yeah played games on phone, zzz.

Proceeded to Giant to meet the rest (i.e. Wei Jie, Yi Xiang, Yu Siang, Samuel, Xingqi, Jessie, Shu Jun, Jia Hui, Cynthia) and wow had this mini amazing race thing to get all the stuffs we needed. Actually Bin Bin and I were quite fast but then Wei Jie the Q-something Collector kept on adding to our load so in the end we got the drinks, chips, honey and ingredients to marinate chicken wings.

Walked a long long way to chalet and Wei Jie molested my butt so many times on the way. No just joking lol he wanted to get his wallet/handphone from my bag. Bin Bin saw this "Just BIN it" and got soooo excited, faint. -_- And Xingqi did this funny (and sick) action that got us laughing for a long long long long time hahahah.

Reached chalet and started food-ing. :D Defrosted the chicken wings and we formed this ji xiong di team of people haha! Oo and we marinated our own chicken wings and turned out everyone said "very nice"! ^^ HAHA and Bin Bin was afraid of the raw chicken wings!!! Hilarious she totally freaked out even when we touched her hahah.

We took forever to start the fire so our lovely neighbours came to help us hehe. Man, so shi bai. -_- Hah now I know how already, next time shall try! And get good fire starters LOL! Don't get those that crumble easily hahaha.

BBQ-ed the entire night; I like it. Most of them were watching Lord of the Rings but oh well, no interest heh.

P.S. I still smell of BBQ. :)

Hello: You asked if I was tired of life and I said no. Fact is that I haven't been happy in a long while since months ago so I forgot how it felt like to be enjoying every moment and that makes it not possible to be tired. As much as I want to relive it, things are just so on-off on-off it makes it impossible. I'm really just an empty shell with hardly any emotions now.


你双眼咪起来 问我好不好
曾几何时 我成了局外人

我生日才过 你也忘了吧
有你的感动 我都记得啊
为什么那个最好的人 却只能经过

年少相知的人 即使过一辈子
晓得吗 我其实非常感慨
此刻才明白 所有的无奈

我生日才过 你也忘了吧
有你的感动 我都记得啊
为什么那个最好的人 却只能经过

你说爱 终究是一个人的事

我生日才过 你也忘了吧
有你的感动 我都记得啊
为什么那个最好的人 却只能经过

为何最好的人 都只是经过


Maybe it's just me.



Just saw this and wanted to do.

1. How old will you be in 3 birthdays?

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
No. -_-

3. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
Konzert XV on 20th July, other than that I'd be :'(

4. Who was the last person you called?
Mummy <3

5. Any plans for today?
Homework, piano, hug Mummy and Sherman, sleep.

6. Who was the last person to text you?
Kenneth Lee.

7. Who was the last person you hugged?
Thiri Dear. :)

8. Missing anyone?

9. What happened at 11:00 a.m today?
Watching Youth Day concert, singing Zhi Zu and :'( -ing

11. If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?
Somewhere close to your heart. Totally impossible I know.

12. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Bare feet.

13. When was the last time you cried?

14. What was the last thing you drank?
Macaroni soup.

15. Favorite ice cream?
Triple chocolate, sweet corn, chocolate chip, mango, etc.

16. What is your favorite number?

17. Whats your favorite color(s)?
Orange, black, white, blue, red, lime green

18. What made you laugh today?
Dilys laughing? I was just laughing for the sake of laughing cause I couldn't.

19. Do you like coffee?

20. How many cups of water do you drink on average?
How many bottles you mean? Many.

21. What do you drink in the morning?
Plain water.

22. Would you rather kiss a snake or an armadillo?

23. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
The space is so small I can't turn but it's cosy.

24. Do you know how to play poker?
Yeah some kinds.

25. What's so good about Friday?
Band, and ends at 1.15pm.

26. Any plans for this week?
SC chalet, homework, meet up for project, online meeting for project, Teacher's Day comm meeting, zzz busy.

27. Do you eat out or at home more often?
Home; I love home.

28. How big is your TV?
As fat as me lah, like 10 feet wide woohoo.

29. Ever stolen a street sign?
No I'm not an idiot.

30. Do you keep a piggy bank?
Used to.

31. What kind of camera do you have?
Handphone lousy 2MP.

33. Do you prefer the ocean or a pool?
No idea.

34. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
Both. Window can look out and emo, aisle can get off quickly.

35. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
What is that. -_-

36. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Food of course.

37. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
Ear studs.

38. Do you speak any other language?
English Chinese Singlish.

39. Can you roll your tongue?

40. Who is the funniest person you know?
Many. I think everyone's funnier than me.

41. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
No Mummy says cannot...

42. What is the main ringtone on your phone?
The Last Breakthrough's theme song.

43. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
I think so. Sherman's wearing some.

44. What is the color of your bedroom wall?
White, but very dirty.

45. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
Of course the earth is dying so am I.

46. Are you crushing on someone right now?

47. Who?
Don't tell you.

48. What are you doing tomorrow?
SC chalet. :)

49. Are you nervous?

50. What are you looking forward to?
Sleeping and not waking up.

Finished it really quickly, bye.

Thought I should update here since the week's over.

IDMI's finally over, no more IDMI anymore wooh. Think we did okay but our accessors were... -_- But yeah it's over, great.

Youth Day celebration was okay. Don't remember ever watching a Youth Day concert, lol. Don't remember Year1's, and last year I was station master the whole while so yeah. Oh Lionel the Sexaye danced lol. The teachers sang 知足 and I :'( cause for once I really paid so much attention to the lyrics. 明天会更好's lyrics are :'( too although it's hopeful.

Fishballs and hotdogs were yummy, I likeee. Managed to finish selling them pretty early so yay.

Blah wanted to play but oh never mind. Lunch and yeah cool Venus could play all her scales already. Good job! Went home and didn't exactly talk as much as I used to.

Oh yes, asked Thiri if she ever feels sad and her reply was, "I feel sad when I am lonely." How true.

SC chalet tomorrow; can't wait to skew chicken wings.


Home really early today. Short quiz before proper work.


Seven things that scare you:
(1) Realising that cat/dog has been beside me for a long time but I didn't realise
(2) Sudden short circuit
(3) Sudden shocks
(4) Crossing roads in a daze and almost getting knocked down
(5) Thinking of people dying
(6) Wild imagination
(7) Sudden loud sounds

Seven things you like most:
(1) Eupho
(2) My bed
(3) Band
(4) Starry nights
(5) Nice songs
(6) Family
(7) Friends, esp GHG

Seven random facts about you:
(1) I want to get evenly tanned
(2) I don't mind rotting in the band room for hours
(3) I cry a lot
(4) I have never been called a "best friend" (shi bai)
(5) I get more tired when I an unoccupied than when I have tonnes to do
(6) I love avocado shake (with coffee)
(7) I think a lot

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
(1) Find love and get married
(2) Form a family (haha)
(3) End all regrets
(4) Eat food that I like
(5) Visit some places (haven't think of)
(6) Say I love you to all I love
(7) Don't tell you

Seven things you can do:
(1) Play at least 2 instruments
(2) Fall down easily
(3) Listen to people
(4) Type quite quickly
(5) Multitask
(6) Shit every day
(7) Eat a lot

Seven things you say the most:
(1) "Hello!"
(2) "Hi!"
(3) "Should I or should I not?"
(4) "Really ah?"
(5) "Orh okay"
(6) "Haha"
(7) "Bye bye"

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
(1-7) Can't think


Promised myself that I'll definitely complete a lot today. Must start regaining the momentum for normal curriculum next Tuesday already.


It takes both rain and sunshine to make a rainbow.